BBL

So I have decided that boys are a waste of time.... espesially the pre-mis... I don't get why it has to be so hard sometimes... two people like each other why cant they just admit it to eachother and be happy while they can. why can't guys just be upfront with how they feel. even if its not the same as you or whatever its better to be brutally honest with some one than to lead them on and get thier hopes up. or to just ignore them and pretend that they never exsisted. its strange how a guy can make you feel so great about your self and make you so happy and in a few weeks make you feel like you don't matter at all and aren't worth caring about. And all you can do about it is pretend that it doesn't matter to you either and go on acting like your perfectly fine when all that you want to do is cry. you think that someone may be different but you realize that they aren't, in fact they may be worse than any of the others.... and he's the one you let in... and he just ignores you. it doesn't make sense. he can talk all the talk and walk the walk but doesn;t mean any of it... or if he does he doesn't show it. I can't stand it.... i just ugh can't do it anymore.... i finally let someone in and it blew up in my face. well its over for sure on sat what ever this messed up whatever is or was...

Act Upon a Whim

So Allison, my roommate, and I were sitting in our room creeping on facebook and then randomly decided that we should make ourselves a blog at 4:00 in the morning...so this is the repercussion of that late night....forget the homework that I had due in a few hours that I told myself that I would get done... Anyways...tonight we decided to pull another all nighter...lol i am going to miss these...there are 3 weeks left in the semester until I go home... I am not really excited. I am glad that I'll get to see everyone again but i have moved on from that part of my life and it's never going to be the same as it was before I left. and living with the parents is going to be interesting again. I'm not really sure i am looking forward to that part...as bad as that sounds, i have enjoyed my freedom too much to want to go back to the ball and chain. hmm not too mention I'll have to discuss my grades with them which to put nicely... suck. So much has been going on lately that i let it slip a little and it started an avalanche that i may not be able to recover from. so we'll see how that goes! Oh yay for stress... I need another Thanksgiving break without taking away the time I have left here. too bad its impossible. haha I'll just try and make the best out of whats left, and kick my butt into shape, and get'r done... hopefully it will play out well!