2012

Well it has been quite a while! So much has changed since my last post! I started seeing Zach again this winter and that went sour pretty quick. I ended up falling for him alll over again and he broke my heart. But now I am SO SO glad that didn't work out. Zachary.... i do not know what the heck i was thinking!  I also decided that i didn't want to go back to BYU-Idaho. I didn't want to teach any more and I couldn't find another program that I was interested in. So I'm going to go to Paul Mitchell Cosmetology School in Provo Utah, and i am so excited. And i am determined to be the best one there. Its going to be a lot of work and a lot of time but I know that i can do it! Winter was hard for me because i didn't really have any friends around. I spent a lot of time at this paint your own pottery place called manic ceramic and became super good friends with Kari a girl who works there. I love here to pieces! I also hung out with Kim a lot! I started working at applebee's as a host and i loved it! i like the restaurant business! when spring came along it was wierd to not be at school but i also knew that i had made the right decision. And now my favorite part of this year so far. Summer. this summer has been the best summer of my life. everyone came home and i have gotten close to a lot of people, many of which will be in Provo with me so that is nice! I started dating this boy, Paul. he's pretty awesome. he was here selling insulation for the summer. I've never been able to be my self so much around a guy before. i am so comfortable around him and he's kind and honest and so adorable. It kinda scares me how much i care about him, I;m in a place where I can get really hurt. he went home to help his family move and with him being gone I've been thinking about what's going to happen in utah a lot and trying to figure out what i want to happen. I hate the situation we got ourselves into. But as someone in church said this last week. "If you are honestly seeking the Lords will, he will stop you if it's the wrong thing." And so far there is nothing making me stop even with the huge possibility of getting hurt. I guess its something that time will tell. I just really hope it works out. I should know a little more in a week or so when everyone is in utah and everything is sorted out. I leave in 3 days! I just hope my heart can take whatever the out come is.