A glimmer of sun

Ok so as previously stated i am goign to have a happy post:)) So last weekend was amazing! ( i need to catch up a little!) Thursday I went to a movie with Zach and then we sat and talked for 2 hours in Mcdonalds...lol who does that? It was awesome and most definately worth the gas i used to get up there. I hardly even noticed the time flying by and didnt get the wierd looks some people were giving us until i realized how long we were there! I love that I can just sit and talk to him for hours about anything. Its very refeshing! and I really kinda like him. and surpisigly i feel safe saying he likes me too. On valentines day he bought me flowers and chocolates ,we hung out that weekend and snuggled watching movies, but yes so thursday was a great day! friday Lindsey came to visit!!!!!!:)))) we drove up to the mall of america (MOA) and shopped all day long... i got the cutest dresses. and ran into alex weill and emily jallen prom dress shopping. most of my money was spent at Forever 21/// i am IN LOVEEEE with that place! so after the mall closed we went in search of the hotel Embassy Suites. . We went inside and were greeted by a Crap ton of...Wrestlers....i was so excited. we got up to the 7th floor of the Beautiful hotel put the key in the door and nothing... wrong hotel: there are 2 embassy suites on american blvd. lol but we found the right one and it was still soooo pretty.Most amazing hotel breakfast everrrr, sooo we decided to go to the cheesecake factory. i love that place! thier ranch dressing is theee besttt..so is the cheesecake but the ranch...yummm. then we went on adventure to find an address in bloomington, idk how we found it but we did. even if it was the wrong thing it was the right address and then i peed in a church parking lot. and it was awesome. then the next morning we went and rode rides at MOA and i left... only to forget where i parked my car and wandered around for 20 min on the wrong floor of the parking garage before i realzed i was on indiana not georgia! then took 10 min to find it on the Georgia level... I am challenged, i know! oh but it was such a good weekend!!! but i am so tired right now so i'm going to bed... Zach and i are hanging out tomorrow so i gotta get my beauty rest! :)) Night World. today i am grateful for Music, My sister Allie, BBL, My Car, my job even though i hate it, Caitlin Solhied and food!

Beautiful Disaster

OK! so it has been a while...but i'm back to blogging and i have got lots to say! :) sooooooooo my life has pretty much blown up into a big crazy disaster. you know the song beautiful disaster... that is what my life is a beautiful disaster. Its hard to believe so many things can be crashing down around you while so many other things are blossoming into wonderful things! my sister has gone off the deep end and has lost her mind, literally. we dont know if she will ever be coming home agian or is she will be put into a residential institution for all of her problems and issues. I am trying to hang onto what is left of my crumbling testimony. all while trying to stay strong for my mom and my sisters who are all processing the whole emily thing and rely on me to help them get through it because somehow i am the logical one... its a wierd situation to say the least, i miss my sister and i love her but i have in some way emotionally detatched my self from the situation. idk if its just because i am used to it now, this being her 5th time in the hospital or i am relieved that the rest of us can live a somewhat more normal life when she's not around. its nice to be able to go get ibuprofen out of the medicine drawer with out having to track down the key to unlock it, because its just always unlocked now. same with the knives and theres not as much yelling and arguing. the house is quiter and its just different. i guess we'll just see what happens down the road. so i am going to end this here. a depressing post but i saved all the good stuff for the next post. actually i am being told its "time for bed" :/ still is annoying!!! thats all... good night world:) New thing: today i am grateful for: the little bit of sun that shone through the clouds, good music, seeing kim at work even if it was only for a little while, boys that make me smile and text me first :P, cookies, free food, the person who taught me the ramen trick...whom ever that was, my cat bella who for some reason loves when i sing at the top of my lungs. for the new door knob that opens with hardly any effort. face book and art. :)